Life is what we make it

你好吗

2011-11-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

也许知道自己想要的,有向往目标
就不会觉得无所谓和累
一切很好只是我不好
醒醒, 想想, 好吗?

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The ordinary

2011-10-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

Out from home at 7 a.m.
Reach home at 11.15 p.m.
My time is not for me myself anymore
I'm tired
but not because of work
because of people around
I'm just an ordinary
that should not be in the same pool with a bunch of awesome talented people
Things don't jive in this way

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想

2011-09-24T01:19:00.000+08:00

没贡献却有点累了
还有很长远的路
该怎么走?

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Everyone loves Friday!

2011-07-22T17:12:00.000+08:00

I wanna shout woohoo! Cause TGIF! And the academic supervisor had finally gave official notice that he won't be visiting OSK due to his Pimpin Siswa! Pressure off the moment I received his sms! Next week will be my last week of honeymoon =X Lovely weekend ahead!

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Decided

2011-07-15T11:22:00.002+08:00

Internship is coming to an end soon and getting another offer unexpectedly makes my life difficult. I feel very conflicting in whether to take it or not as I'm quite satisfied with my current spot. People here are friendly, pay is on par with the industry, normal workload and of course very handsome bonus as its after all an IB. Some said that its a very Chinaman bank but for me its okay, maybe cause I'm Chinese? My superiors had suggested me to join corporate finance or research department. I do feel that these departments are good and I'm okay with the job but I'm really not sure what I really want at this stage. My colleagues' advises is that I should stay because they think getting into investment bank is not easy especially research that should start young. I've been thinking about this over and over again everyday. It's really a tough decision because the other job offer is also quite attractive I would say. Although its also known as a Chineseman bank, the starting pay and benefits are definitely better than my current one except that bonus will be a lot lower. But of course I can imagine the kind of workload and expectation with that kind of salary for a fresh grad without any related experience. I'm quite worry for what they expect from me actually, especially the part that they focus more on networking ability. Anyhow, in the end, should it be interest/ pay/ learning exposure/ work-life balance that play the main role? My mind is almost exploded before I've finally decided after a week+ of headache. Maybe I'll never get the chance of entering CF or research or even investment again but I think I would prefer to explore new stuff currently. Maybe its unsuitable for me but I guess trying brings no harm. Afterall, I think I'm still young x> No?

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Finally

2011-06-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

As I am so free in the office, I log into campus online to check about credit transfer thingy. The first thing I see is my CGPA...Thanks god its dropped = the credits are FINALLY transferred, after almost a year. I have a thing less to worry about finally. And I pass my Duetsch Pruefung~ The only thing left now is internship! Hope its over in a blink of an eye.

If I have no option, I'll do it. But if I have choices, I opt not. So I guess this suggests that I don't like it. What am I thinking? What am I doing? There's just something missing.

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Internship

2011-06-16T01:21:00.001+08:00

It's already one and a half month of internship! Still, I did nothing. Argh, this is bore. But I do like this department except the networking part. I felt so so so awkward during the roadshow the other day. I really don't know what to talk to all those private bankers, exclusive investors and the top management of the companies. Although it's kind of like the networking session I once attended for a job assessment, but now the people around is totally different. At least during the job assessment, everyone is of the same age group or experience level, its easier to find a common topic. A real one like this, I really don't know what's our common topic gosh.....cause I don't know anything about the industry! FML. The only thing I do to pass my working hour is signing up for some Bloomberg seminars. Well....its only useful IF I get to apply -.- By the way, Bloomberg's pantry is awesome! Stock with VARIOUS types of snacks and drinks. Back in office, it's so dull and freezing. Speaking of this, I think its better that I get another jacket to office tomorrow. The office is like a refrigerator cause there's only 5 people sharing 4 air-conditionals wth. When the clock ticks 6.15 p.m., I am nowhere in the office. Ciao damn right on time as I have nothing to do. Guess I am frivolous in the eyes of my boss. It's rather sad that I can't stay in this department even if I stay in the same company. Where should I go after this? My ideal plan is going for a holiday after the internship!! Then only find a proper job or just stay at home xd I want to stay at home only!

The worst news ever in this period is my final sem result I guess. Wow, sucks to the max. Yet, I have celebrated it with a fine dining. I feel a release with the sucky result, don't know why. Anyway, am now waiting for my German proficiency exam's result. Took the exam last week~ The first two parts are okay I guess though I forgot to write something but for the third part which is oral, I'm doomed. Hopefully can pass *finger crossed* A pass means need to get >70% God bless!!

Except working hours, time is flying way too fast. So many plans with so little time. I want to travel travel and only travel!

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1406

2011-06-14T23:37:00.001+08:00

总觉得有点累

总觉得好像缺了点什么

总觉得可以吗？

机会错过了会再来吗？

徘徊,因为勇敢不了

Sometimes I wish life is arranged

I am too used to be ignorant

because this is how I live through

and now, its eating me from the inside

Should I or should I not?

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If I have wings

2011-06-02T23:53:00.001+08:00

I dreamed a dream

Am soaring freely in the bright blue sky

Gaze lazily at the slowly moving clouds for moments of unwind

The air in the clouds is so pure and fine, bracing and delicious

Seeing the ground thousands of miles away

Releasing my mind from the tyranny of petty things

Amid the heavenly sight

A gentle whisper I heard

It's time to work

Yes, life has killed my dream

"You'll never achieve real success unless you like what you're doing." - Dale Carnegie

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Too late to regret

2011-05-17T15:47:00.000+08:00

Maybe I wasn't trying hard
Maybe I was just having fun
Maybe I thought its insignificant
because things have always come easily
I have been taking everything for granted,
forgot what's appreciation
Dodged by this ill-perception,
Just lay your head to rest and dream, they will still come to you
When its all gone now
I see the importance
no matter how hard I'm searching for it
no matter how hard I cried or wanted to scream
no matter how hard I wish
no matter....
there is just no sign, even of its existence
Its just isn't there anymore
I really hope that this is true: When one door closes, another opens

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三年了

2011-05-02T01:39:00.000+08:00

结束了大学生活

希望大家都有A+人生！

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Bill Gates' 11 Rules of Life

2011-05-01T03:37:00.000+08:00

Rule 1:

Life is not fair -- get used to it!

Rule 2:
The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3:
You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4:
If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5:
Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping -- they called it opportunity.

Rule 6:
If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7:
Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8:
Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9:
Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10:
Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11:
Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

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积累

2011-05-01T03:34:00.000+08:00

回到房里

觉得很静很静

与几分钟前反差很大很大

虽然不是什么坏事

是很轻松平静

但夜深人静

玩乐时暂忘的烦恼开始一一浮现

得面对的总得面对

不过现在真的很累很累

身与心

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Top 30 Universities in Malaysia

2011-04-30T00:01:00.001+08:00

World Country Name

     Rank     Rank
629    1    Universiti Sains Malaysia
694    2   Universiti Teknologi Malaysia
731    3    Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
771    4    Universiti Putra Malaysia
788    5    University of Malaya
995    6     Universiti Malaysia Perlis
1126    7     Multimedia University
1133    8     Universiti Teknologi Mara
1344    9     Universiti Malaysia Pahang
1491 10     International Islamic University of Malaysia *
1572 11     Universiti Utara Malaysia
1838 12     Universiti Tun Hussein Onn Malaysia
1838 13     Universiti Tenaga Nasional
1862 14     Universiti Malaysia Sabah
2106 15     Open University Malaysia
2127 16     University of Nottingham Malaysia
2154 17     Universiti Teknologi Petronas
2274 18     Universiti Sains Islam Malaysia
2993 19     Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris
3333 20     Taylor's University College
3450 21     Universiti Teknikal Malaysia Melaka
3847 22     Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman
3859 23     Universiti Malaysia Terengganu
4571 24     Universiti Malaysia Sarawak
5011 25     Universiti Tun Abdul Razak *
5068 26     Monash University Malaysia
5266 27     Universiti Industri Selangor
5375 28     Wawasan Open University
5528 29     UCSI University
5554

30 Curtin University of Technology Sarawak Campus

Sources & further information:

飞扬的岁月

2011-04-29T00:45:00.000+08:00

我们勾勾手指

许下承诺

为梦想奋斗

打造人生最美的一道风景

现在，以后，未来

我们都是最幸福的

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看着自己的悲伤

2011-04-27T20:53:00.001+08:00

Photo credit: mipang.com

难过

也改变不了

不如沉默

蹲下来抱抱自己

让一切归零

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Steamboat@Golden

2011-04-25T21:27:00.001+08:00

Throughout the whole semester, study week and exam weeks are my freest periods. Was kind of busy for these few days in the name of relaxing. No, I should rephrase, is since study week, was kind of busy in the name of relaxing. Had too much of fast food lately, Manhattan Fish Market, Pizza Hut, McD etc etc. Plus, the damn freaking hot weather, my body is feeling HOT. Anyway, went to Golden BBQ Steamboat Restaurant @ Jalan Nagore last week. My favorite of the day, fresh clams, sweet!

Some of the dishes: hot dog, crab meat, ham, meat ball, and some thinly sliced meat (but I think they are not thin enough).

Some fried stuff, noodle, rice and satay. Prawn mee served is nice too.

Herbal egg

4 types of sources, chili and planta

Chocolate fruit dip! I love fruits~

The other favorite of the day, the glass of herbal tea! (right bottom lol)

I like their architecture, kind of old and tradition. But personally, I think Town Steamboat Restaurant @ McAlister Road is better than Golden BBQ Steamboat. Town Steamboat has more choices of dishes + dim sum and taste better.

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Awe!

2011-04-24T02:26:00.001+08:00

Headline of the day: Got lost in Penang town for almost an hour before reaching USM lol. At least we reached USM before 12 a.m. Am kind of tired but I took the effort to transfer pictures took today from my phone to laptop. After uploading the pictures, I scanned through my picture folder and I found this, Disneyland piglet headband! XP

Scare the hell out of you? xdxdxd

Silly on me. So not me lol. Forgot when is it taken, I guess its some time around November last year. I miss my teeth without braces!

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谷底

2011-04-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

考完第二张后

心情糟糕透了

糟糕透了

交了1/3的白卷

太糟了

空白 = 什么希望都没了

昨天太高兴了

还在锯扒兼享受杯子蛋糕

都在自我陶醉

不过不会再去那吃回一样的

很怪的酱

今早才开始翻今天的两科

现在真的是

一棒敲醒梦中人

果然考试是要读书的！！！！

还是难以相信自己空了那么多

!@#$%^&*

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Ganbatte!

2011-04-20T14:48:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I wish I can write with both of my hands so that they can take turn. Especially now, exam period. Feel like my hand is going to paralyze. I still don't feel like writing anything now although the exam ended 3 hours ago. But I am very happy that the exam hall today is not so cold, precisely the temperature for exam for me. I was sneezing and quivering the whole 3 hours during IF, I can't even think and write. My hand shivered like none of my business -.- Hope tomorrow exam hall is as cool as today's! As for the paper, hmm.....GOD BLESS. But at least it's better than IF. My IF..... x.x
Two papers in a day tomorrow. Well... I don't know how am I going to finish the 12 chapters and 100 pages in half a day but at least I have half a day, its a good news? I guess it is, its still better than none.
Feeling kind of numb to exam since last semester. Things become nothing unusual when they come too much in a time isn't it? Now, not even willing to read the day before exam. Or maybe this is the last semester? I don't like this feeling, no stress = no pressure = no motivation.

Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who your are. - Bernice Johnson Reagon

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Exam marathon

2011-04-19T22:13:00.002+08:00

Although I really feel like complaining or groaning about the exam time table and the paper I already sat for, but I guess its better not to. Need to generate more positive energy, to realize the law of attraction! =D

Or maybe just one sentence, if not I'll go crazy before the end of exam.
I am very sad, disappointed, feel like banging my head to the wall. I really need you GOD! BLESSING PLEASE!

Tomorrow paper: Options and Futures Markets! Fighting!

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God, bless this week

2011-04-18T00:14:00.001+08:00

Bed is nefarious. Whenever I see it, couldn't help to lay on it and needless to say, fall asleep after a few minutes without even finish reading a page. In addition, the weather is so freaking hot in Penang, hence, we went to the library to do some reading to avoid the humidity and beds in our beloved rooms. We bring our habit to the library altogether, messiness.....

But I guess what's really annoying is the noise we made. The students sitting behind us moved to other place. Sorry! YY, you are seriously my partner in crime!
Till now, I still have 150 pages of IF to go!! I am currently so god damn sleepy but still, NEED TO OPEN EYES WIDE. Only left few more hours to the start of my final marathon!
My German lecturer once predicted that I'll have the same amount of load for this semester's final as last semester during mid of sem. I was like choi! choi! choi! at that time but still it came true!
I really don't understand why the subjects like to squeeze themselves in the first week, isn't it too scanty for all of you to be in the same week huh darlings? Hmmm.....have to suck it up and move along again.
Ganbatte! Fighting!

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倒数两天

2011-04-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

看完戏

看着凌乱的桌面

还是得无奈的K书

开始读第一科IF

还有10chapters to go

希望明天可以翻完

其他subjects怎么办？

especially options and e-business *拉头发*

浪费了一天

啊啊啊啊啊

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一日三餐

2011-04-15T23:29:00.001+08:00

朋友说网络是最好的storage

想想也对

上个semester laptop 坏了

很多document都没迁来

现在在这

想留个脚步吧

instead of 仅于本人无聊情绪

今天星期五了*reminder for myself*

进展超慢

还是没什么大考的心情

没上课后

今天第一次早上起床

早餐! 近近就好，maxim茶餐室

喜欢这里的芋头糕，芋角，虾卷？*不懂叫什*

扫光了，太饱

就去吹吹冷气说说瞎话

时间溜得挺快的

午餐时间，

瑞士回来后好久好久没吃的Roti Telur

晚餐，大师要下厨

到Tesco转了两圈

当然少不了必需品-零食

今天特选

超便宜的巧克力

Only RM 2.45 for 2!

虽然不懂好不好吃

煮饭婆xd

本人只有等的份xd

不错哦，果然是贤妻良母～

+MinuteMaid Tropical Mixed Fruit drink赞
轻松的一天
但此刻
真的好担心三天后
顺其自然 [°.°]？*自我安慰-*

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小叮当，你在哪？

2011-04-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

再荒聊不过

没上课

把日子也搞错了

现在才发现只剩几天

真的吓到

到图书馆坐了三小时

看来看去

还是同一个chapter

有够顶不顺

结果还是回去看优酷了

今天是星期四了

*提醒自己！*

好想有小叮当的土司面包！

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03042011

2011-04-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

Today is my dearest dad's birthday
And also Park Jung Min's birthday
Wished them happy birthday
Had been absence from dad's birthday for many years
Hope next year whole family will be able to celebrate together
Maybe to my family I'm rebellious but I love you all, mum, dad, bro and sis
I hope we have more time together, 5 together.

Some friends are wondering why I am so into them, why I like them so much
It's so unlike me
Hmm.....It's the same reason as why I like Jay Chou haha
When I first like Jay Chou, its because of my bro and him
Both of them like Jay since his first debut
But when I love Jay
It's because of the story behind him

有故事的人才能作出动人心弦的旋律

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Because I am stupid - SS501

2011-04-03T02:31:00.000+08:00

Nae meoriga neomuna nappaseo
I’m really, very foolish
neo hanapakke nan moreugo
I know of no one other than you
tareun sarameun pogoittneun
you’re looking at someone else
ireon naema-eumdo moreugettji

yet you have no idea of my feelings like this

neoui harue naran eoptgettji
I won’t be in your days
tto chu’eokjoch’a eoptgettjiman
I won’t be in the memories either, however
neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
only you, I looked only at you
chakku nunmuli heureugoisseo

and the tears keep coming

neoui dwaetmoseubeul poneungeotdo nan haengbokiya
As i watch you walking past, I’m still happy
ajik naui ma-eumeul mollado
even yet you still don’t know my heart
kkeutnae seuch’ideusi kado
I should stop this and go
niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen
I really want to see the day
neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
I’m withstanding the pain each day
neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
“I love you” is playing on my lips
honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Alone once again, crying for you
honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU

alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m waiting for you

neoui harue nan eoptgettji
I won’t be in your days
tto kieokjoch’a eoptgettjiman
I won’t be remembered either, however
neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
only you, I looked only at you
honja ch’ueokeul mandeulgo isseo
I’m making memories alone
naegen sarangiran areumdaun sangch’eokat’a
Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
neoui yeppeun misoreul poado
I look at your pretty smile also
hamkke nan utjido mothae
but I cannot laugh with you
niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
I’m thinking about you so much everyday
kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
alone once again, crying for you
honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

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WTF critical

2011-03-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

Overloaded with freaking lots of task
Too numb to feel anything even though I'm going to forgo 10m on 1 of the assignments
Its individual so I guess its okay since its only my marks
Only focus in groupworks
So so doom
Just hope this semester end soon and go through the 3 months of intern with light speed
Then I can FLY!!! Finance no more!

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Rush hoursss

2011-03-15T00:12:00.000+08:00

It's mid of March
God damn it
everything due SOON!
2 journals, 3 reports, 3 tests, 1 debate, 1 presentation
all within 2 weeks
+ need to get my ass back to KL to get the letter
damn a waste of time
I can only spend an average of a day for each of these tasks
TOTALLY MISSION IMPOSSIBLE
OMFG FML
I've never felt such helpless before
Say Goodbye
-End of story-

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62心情日记

2011-03-03T00:48:00.003+08:00

三月三日

牙痛，刚拉紧牙套和拔牙

每一次见牙医就要牙痛嘴痛几天

说话很不方便

真的越来越讨厌牙医了

虽然觉得他们真的很神奇

天气晒透了

真是阳光普照

如果能一整天都藏在柜里就好了

就喜欢黑暗

写到这

宿舍的火警又响了

为什么火灾演习这么频密

什么时候真的着火了都不会懂

让我想起校园大选时

候选人布条遭人纵火

如果火真的蔓延了

怎么办

只不过小小游戏

干嘛这样

心情还是很沉重

可以得奖本来应该会开心起来的

也许因为知道

到最后

不会是这样的

不是我的就不是我的

听着SS501 Love Like This
找天
我想买朴政玟的新专辑
太可爱了

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Can I fly

2011-03-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

I know I have not been doing anything but
I am tired
Standing still at the junction
Looking left and right
Is this a turning point that I should take or even U-turn
It's too distance away to know the path
Going straight just suffocates me more

I thought I will be happy if I could work there
But sitting in the room during the interview, I feel very contradicted in within
There some voices deep down whispering no
I just want to get away from the building
I really hope that I could fly in the sky
Listen to people's stories from the west, east, north and south
Is it too late?

I think
I have been standing still for way too long that I forgot
where am I heading

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My dream

2011-02-27T21:40:00.001+08:00

A book I bought at Straits Quay weeks ago

Showing 100 beautiful places around the world

From Tokyo to LA, Alaska to Milford Sound

Reading through it for days

They are so freaking tempting!

I want to go to these places so GOD DAMN MUCH!!

Ayutthaya, Cappadocia, Easter Island,

Iguazu Falls, Niagara Falls, Machu Picchu,

Perito Moreno Glacier, Potala Palace, Pyramids of Giza,

Serengeti, Teotihuacan, Valley of the Kings

And must see Nothern Light, its just so god like

When can I visit these places??

They may not seem realistic for me

But for China, its a MUST

Feel so not right for never visit China

Forbidden City, Great Wall of China, Terracotta Army!

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Eyes open wide

2011-02-27T03:13:00.000+08:00

Can't fall asleep in this dead night due to the following reasons:
1. Waking up at 1 p.m.
2. Nap at 5 p.m. to 9 p.m.
My whole Saturday is spent in sleep wtf
Its okay in weekend but in weekdays,
dragging the so-not-mine body to class is sucks
I seriously need to re-balance my day and night
hm well........words are always louder than action xd

Whats in my mind now is Korean food~
I must have a Korean meal when I'm back to KL next week!

Before that, continue my K-pop until I fall asleep...

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悔

2011-02-25T01:47:00.000+08:00

怎么不可能都好

还是很想说

如果

时间能倒流

是不是能做到更多？

也许会很疲惫

也许会失去什

也许会很懊恼

但就是这样才能得到

那最珍贵的

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MORE TIME PLS

2011-02-23T17:46:00.000+08:00

Saying goodbye to IF but now,
tests or UBS is more important?!
OMG

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Efficiency? GTH

2011-02-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

Useless IO
Useless PA
Useless school
Damn frus by all these excessive bureaucracy and policy & inefficient and irresponsible personnel

I am freaking tired of visiting HEPP, Jabatan Biasiswa, SOM, IO, Jabatan Bendahari & CS office, Jabatan Akademik since last semester wtf.

When can this stop?

OR maybe I should feel bless that they are at least in walkable distance?
YES IF ONLY MALAYSIA IS SNOWING

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Blue Valentine

2011-02-14T18:12:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy when a company I applied last Friday replied
Well, at least someone did reply........
But in the late noon,
I'm like falling from KLCC right to the hell
I really don't want to curse in this lovey dovey day
BUT I NEED TO WTF WTF WTF !@#$%^&*
DEFINITELY NO MOOD for this week's exams anymore
TOTALLY FREAKING NO MOOD
due to this super duper horrible news
FML

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Holiday no more

2011-02-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

CNY holiday ended so soon!
I haven't start doing anything and its ENDED! This is scary
I need more than a break!
Today wasn't a good day but anyway, off it goes
but I'll NEVER take Eagle Couch again
Not Etika Eagle but EAGLE
Tomorrow starting class with an English presentation
Haven't done the slides and script yet
Feeling very tired without doing anything
Mentally exhausted due to the torturing of 2 teeth extraction and tightening of braces
Don't have mood to do anything, sleep and watch drama are the best
I really hate that I can't eat happily especially when all the damn nice juicy food are in front of me

We are now marching into 2nd week of February 2011!
what I remember everyday is only braces braces braces urgh!
Better have a nice neat teeth after the braces is off, if not -.-
Left only 2 months now, just started to find for intern company
There is a rush to bang my head to the wall for not sending out resume earlier
Isn't it a good thing that all the companies come to uni to search for employees like Dell? xd
I'm starting to worry now after rejecting Dell
What happen if I couldn't get another company?!! HOW?!
Cause I think Dell is quite a good company
Hopefully can get reply from the 2 companies that I sent my resume during CNY asap ><
God Bless

&

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

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Tagebuch23

2011-01-23T16:03:00.000+08:00

I used to think that when there's a will, there's a way
This belief is somehow shaken by some incidents and thoughts lately
Feeling very insecure and unsure of what is coming soon
I'm definitely a risk averse person, I dislike uncertainty
I'm thinking of shortcut in everything I do nowadays, extremely unhealthy way of life
I want to hold on, just awhile more I beg myself
It's going to end soon
but lack of determination is really horrifying
I fail awfully

Heute ist Sonntag
Das Wetter ist sehr heiß und sonnig, hasse der Wärme
Ich wachte um 12 Uhr
Ich bin in meinem Zimmer bleiben
Musik hören und drama schauen
Es gibt viele hausaufgaben aber ich mich sehr faul fühle
Ich glaube, dass Deutsch Ebene 3 schwierig ist
Ich weiß nicht, wie damit umzugehen
Ich habe Angst vor der nächsten Woche
So viele funktioniert!
Wo ist meine Leidenschaft?
Hoffentlich geht alles gut!

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Tagebuch18

2011-01-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

Its almost end of January!
The only thing I done so far is watching the k-pop entertainments & drama from midnight till dawn
because they load faster during that hour, when everyone is sleeping~
Then go to class like a freaking zombie, everything is so freaking blur during the morning without contact lenses
I have a feeling that my eyes are going blind soon
In the past, I still can see without con, now not anymore fml
Sleep after class in noon and wake up at almost 8pm everyday is tiring though didn't do any meaningful thing
I should set my new year resolution
- laser eye surgery!
- adjust my biological clock!

I couldn't help it but ADORE how the management plan and does their works ==
I'm wondering am I able to grad on time? wtf
The admin said that the ptptn will bank in in February but I think their words are definitely not trust-able
Probably after I grad I still haven't get it
How to get them get their work done???!!! It's already 6 months since I'm back my god!

Ich muss mein Deutsch üben
Ich glaube, mein koreanisch ist besser als mein Deutsch schon
obwohl ich kann nicht Han-gul schreiben
Ich verbringe fast acht Stunden täglich in Koreanisch Hören Gott
es gibt Deutsch Klasse morgen wieder
und drei weitere Klassen
Darüber sind sie kontinuierliche
Ich muss zur jeder Klasse Ansturm
Fighting!
als das, was die koreanische sagen
Aufwachen am Morgen ist wunderbar

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Shoo-ed away the clouds

2011-01-08T02:17:00.003+08:00

Today is already 7th! Can't believe how fast the time fly when I'm dreaming my way to Disneyland...
Was late 10 minutes to class and kena shoot by the lecturer -.-
I can sense that she hates me more now..oh well.....i dislike the class too
No matter how hard I try, I can't fall in love with that subject..Or maybe I never try to...
I'm quite amazed by myself that I registered for it voluntarily LOL
Guess I'm very fan jin, taking everything that I hate or really noob in -.-
I went to pusat kesihatan to see the doctor for the first time today cause I was feeling really very unwell this morning, if not I will be lazy to walk there. Maybe too much of pudding or too much of Korean drama lately?!
I was there at 10.30 a.m. but the nurse asked me to come again at 2.45 p.m. wtf. So many patients? Its my first time there and probably will be the last time too. I really don't have any good impression on any government owned dental and clinic -.- Private ones really worth the pay
Anyway, today is a happy day! Though didn't found what I want to buy, at least got to eat delicious Nando's and bought a pair of pants. Still, braces is torturing my mouth and teeth but I can't stop myself from eating. These days, its kinda like my mouth is going to rot, cause the cells in the mouth are hurt by the metal -.- My Spoken English lecturer seriously has problem with the way I speak. Really not a good idea to start an orthodontic treatment and take Spoken English at the same time. Having difficulty in talking is sucks.
What excite me the most is the message from yc, unbelievable! Thank you! Thank God!
But if I continue on with my current situation, eat, sleep, watch drama & go out, I'm going to doom REAL SOON. There are works to be submitted next week, still haven't start yet! wtf. Need motivation!

Tomorrow will be a brighter day!

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How will it be?

2011-01-06T02:12:00.001+08:00

Though its only some frivolous talk about future
but jw's question is still lingering in my mind
I did thought about that when I apply yet not seriously
When the time comes, decision need to be made
which is the part that I dislike, am never good in it
Maybe I'll opt out because of that, partly
I keep telling myself no, that's not the reason, nor mention a word to other
but I do struggle about that deep down
how do I weight these two? I'm very sure in the past
Until, I'm falling for you
starting to lose part of myself
I'm over dependent on you
I'm still skeptical about us in the same time
I've decided, I think you know
Will you do the same, if you were me?

***

这些日子，那些改变
是感觉到的
只是没说出口
得到的，失去的
谁能告诉我，该怎么去衡量
两全其美只是童话故事
我
怎能把脆弱当作是种解脱

***

此刻
也是宁静的夜晚
听着六色彩虹
总会想起你
重逢的那一天
我还是会微笑

***

Es ist Zeit, aufhören zu träumen und lebe mein Leben
Ich brauche Wille, starker Wille
aber schau, was mache ich jetzt?
Konnte nicht glauben, dass ich mich hassen...

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311210

2010-12-31T02:10:00.000+08:00

First week of semester is spent in Korean drama~ Over indulged in it..
Going back KL later~~ xoxo
But the sudden announcement of public holiday mess up my ori schedule =.=
Should have bought an earlier ticket...
Public holiday is still a good news though, as classes are canceled! x)
Last day of 2010, 22 hours to go until 2011
A new year ahead, new dreams to dream!
Life is a joyride on this Earth that I greedily hope of endless

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KHJ Intoxication

2010-12-29T23:07:00.001+08:00

Actually I already decided to drop German to take Korean but after attending today's first meeting
Guess can't make it
There is only 5 people in German level 3 =.=
Don't know what will the lehrerin said if drop
and heard Korean class is already overloaded
I feel so headache everytime I heard German
and it will last for the whole day! Gosh!!!!
I'm stuck with German for another few months!!!! Level 3!! *hate it*
I want to learn Korean! My mind is full of Korean only!
annyeonghaseyo, je ileum-eun kse!
Kim Hyun Joong!!! jinjja gwiyeowo！

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Fresh new beginning!

2010-12-28T01:45:00.002+08:00

Holiday ended so freaking soon!
Christmas is over, what a Christmas this year @@
Result is out, though not ideal but its a fact now
Simply register for subjects, drop and register again?!
Headache, lazy, stubborn....fml

Anyway,its now final semester in USM!
Was always waiting for this moment
Wanting to runaway from here
but when the time has come
I'm happy as I don't have to study anymore
yet wistful as I haven't get to enjoy everything here..
Hopefully this is a great semester
Will go to temples to do some prayers this week~

Got an internship offer from China
I'm quite satisfied with that
but sadly the further I can go is only Singapore
It's very saddening
Kinda regret to do braces but there is no way back
Really hope can intern in HK, Taiwan or China argh!!!

Another few more days, a year is gone again
2010 is definitely a great && wonderful year
There is a lot of lifetime experience
Vicissitude, hardships && blessings
Indescribable by words
Looking forward for a remarkable 2011!

***

You are always the only one
na-ege habgyeog dangsin-i nae haengbog aleu
geulaeseo dangsin-ege maeilbogo sip-eo
dangsin-ihalyeoneun maeil dangsin-eul salanghabnida insa

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假期？

2010-12-10T17:36:00.001+08:00

活在戏中很美好

现实中一塌糊涂

口袋穿洞

日夜颠倒

记忆、逻辑性严重衰退

披头散发

皮肤烂掉

睡眠超没素质

走两步就想死

与运动离别了超超超久

starbuck到想吐

东西刚开始做

开了几个doc

看得眼睛@@

头上冒？？？

还是按【x】比较开心

只剩三天

怎么办？噢图客？？？

期待礼拜日but想到那高度......

怕怕～

什么时候rafting & paint ball？

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Heart Kim Hyun Joong

2010-11-22T04:27:00.005+08:00

I've never ever thought of learning Korean

But now I'm so so interested!

Because of Kim Hyun Joong ♥

XD XD XD

Can you resist a guy like this?!
Well.....obviously I can't! XD

Although I know him since the Korean Drama Boys over Flower, and now Mischievous Kiss
but what makes me really into him is the reality shows of SS501.
Feel that all of them Park Jung Min, Kim Kyu Jong, Kim Hyung Jun and Heo Young Saeng are so cute and sincere
Hope to see their come back!
Hope its coming soon.
Probably I'm going to abandon French next semester and take Korean instead!!
So happy that I got all of the Ssangchu couple episodes from friend today!

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Thanks God

2010-11-19T01:41:00.000+08:00

It's funny sometimes
The best always come when its least expected
while the expectation always disappoint you
Anyhow, I want to say thank you GODS!

Weather in Penang is so extreme
OMG hot and sunny in the noon
Refreshing heavy rain in the midnight
Of course, I love the later one

I can't wait to go back!
Fahrenheit 88 && Harry Potter!
I really need to start my work tomorrow =X
I hope

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a.m.

2010-11-18T01:58:00.000+08:00

I feel so trapped
that I'm suffocating in the free air
I need a sweet escape
that is to go back to my home sweet home

Hope for the best tomorrow!
*finger crossed*

I really hope THEY heard my prayers...

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寻找目标

2010-11-16T22:42:00.002+08:00

在想什么

不知道

虚度光阴

很准确

没尝试

没付出

却想得到

是一场梦

大马没冬天
心总突然的冻结

很奇妙

真的

---

本来我想好好努力

用我的眼看看你走过的世界

用我的心感受你当中的点滴

我真的真的一直在努力着

奈何你还是无情地离开了

方向感也随你而去

剩下的只是被泪水模糊的视线

无限的堕落

也许就算我多努力

白痴终究是白痴

---

我告诉自己

够了！！

颓废

也不过是自给自的同情

明天以后

是时候站起来开始新的旅程

这一次

不再是巴黎

向巴厘出发吧！

---

其实

也不过是个借口

想寻找

那被你遗忘了的回忆

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我不想

2010-11-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

我努力地爬上一颗不断滚动的圆球, 却始终站不稳, 常常跌落…….你说男孩别哭! 我知道,我会努力檫干眼泪. 可是, 可不可以先让我放声哭泣, 才继续勇敢?

　　———《我只能为你画一张小卡片》几米

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How much I wish

2010-11-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

One investment is already sucks
Why database comes on the same day?!
I did not order a add-on menu
I love add-ons in meals but NOT IN EXAM
THIS IS REALLY SUCKS TO THE MAX
NOTHING is worst than this SERIOUSLY
Should have read more
but I spent the whole afternoon sleeping since I woke up so early today for a morning paper today ><
No mood to study AT ALL
FML to the max

Something happen at home again
Just hope that history will not repeat
I don't need another incident that's going to haunt my whole life twice
So hope that I could accompany my mum at this moment
Glad that my aunts are very supportive, thanks them so much

And today is her birthday
The person I love the most in this world
I love you beyond words forever
When I said forever, it means forever

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EMO

2010-11-11T19:50:00.001+08:00

Gone, is the only word that I can use to describe it
3 more wtf papers in the next 2 days.
This is really the suckiest time in my school time
I miss secondary school so much!
No homework, no stress, nothing!
Can go shopping everyday!

Sometimes I do think
What if I did not go to exchange
Will it be the same?
When I've experienced the best in my life
Everything else becomes the worst
When I've started to embrace the study environment, culture, lifestyle, etc which I deem better
Its hard to accept how it used to be & suppose to be again
What I used to agree on, not anymore
What I used to hold on, not anymore
How I used to be, not anymore
The little unnoticeable changes that make all the difference
Especially the speed of life
To be in usm in the week I'm back in Malaysia
A sudden change
don't even have time for a transition period
I'm seriously not prepared to be in usm again
And the preparation mood is being towed till now wtf

I really don't understand why the hell am I making my life so miserable in this sem
when I don't even need to study to be what I want to be
I wanna quit school in f3 but thanks god I did not
Thought of not going to uni because my f6 result sucks to hell like 1.2/4.0 or 0.8/4.0?
my mum keep asking me to apply for the job after f6
because she sees that her friend's daughter doing well in it
but then stpm result is freaking out of expected
thought of not coming to usm because I think its better to apply earlier
But I am here
For the sake of a degree
For whom I came here for
Sorry
The word QUIT keep on spinning in my head urgh....

I've been repeating the song over and over again
I'm thinking, how can this person be so determine, so perseverance
God did not give him all of these
even less than what a normal person has
but he walk his path fearlessly, brightly
The choice is always in our hands
Seeing him prompt me to feel ashamed of myself
kse, you seriously can jump off the window now

I miss paulaner now

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UNFAIR

2010-11-10T01:31:00.002+08:00

I keep on hypnotizing myself
Its only 6 papers in a week, whats the big deal
And people around keep saying yah, you can do it (LIES!)
But now the reality hit me hard
I CANNOT DO IT FUCK
Yes, I spend most of my time doing other things than studying
BECAUSE I CANNOT DO IT
ITS REALLY CRAZY YOU KNOW
ITS NOT ABOUT YOU CAN READ THEM ALL OR NOT
ITS THE STRESS
I CAN'T EVEN FALL ASLEEP IN FEW CONSECUTIVE DAYS ALREADY = BRAIN BLANK

There is a paper that actually can be postponed to 2nd or 3rd week
BUT
One said:" Sorry I'm going home that week, already planned. After that I have no time to go home."
This fella home is not even further away from my home WTF
Another said:" Sorry I'm going holiday. My dad plan already."
WTF.......................................
Of course the lecturer cannot change as these 2 students said NO
She did said why are they so selfish bla bla bla around an hour to me WTF
Why don't she just ask them face-to-face, whats the use of asking me?! IRRITATES ME MORE
I am quite cool with them before this because I was thinking ok, nevermind, maybe its not that bad but
NOW I really feel like I wanna take shit to throw them because I really 100% sure that I can't do it

And the damn SOM. Because they said I am the only one, so no change. Why engineering school only a person has 2 papers in 2 days can change?! WHY DAMN SOM CANNOT CHANGE WHEN STUDENT HAVE 6 PAPERS IN A WEEK?!!! First week somemore WTFFFFFFFF

Tomorrow morning paper, INSOMNIA AGAIN

THIS IS SOOOOOOO FUCKING UNFAIR

I AM SO FUCKING PISS OFF NOW
making things worst shit

Take a deep deep breath
Time to lay on bed till morning~

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Starts to feel nervous!

2010-11-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

Few more hours to the start of my final marathon ♡
Progress-
ATW - 75%
ATP - 10%
AFW - 0%
LSP - Ignored
LAG - 5% (because I listen to german songs so consider more than 0% =D)
CMM - 20%

Enough said.
Time to sleep.
Gute Nacht!

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巨蟹座

2010-11-06T20:04:00.001+08:00

八、巨蟹座

代表人物：《幽游白书》藏马

阴柔，暖昧，巨蟹的守护神是月亮，这正符合月亮的本质，

外表冰冷，但内心善良，和熟悉的人他会很热情，他会很尽力的让他身边的人感受到做他的朋友和不做他的朋友有明显的区别。和恋人他会想尽办法让对方感到浪漫感到满足，但这个前提是巨蟹主观的，比如他觉得有月亮的夜晚最浪漫，他就会想办法让心爱的人享受一杯月光下的葡萄酒，但他往往忽略心爱的人是否也认同品一杯月光下的葡萄酒是否就是一种享受。

逃避是他的弱点，遇到困难他往往第一想到的是绕过去，然而生活中许多事情用逃避是无法解决的。容易被儒家思想感化。即使很穷困潦倒，他也不忘记让自己做一个有气节君子。美德，和蔼，让人觉得没有攻击性，和他相处没有压力，是他认为提升自己人缘和魅力的首要要素。爱走极端。在顺境中你会发现一个巨蟹男会是一个几乎完美的人。除非你崇拜的是虚荣繁华，暴力凶杀。顺境中的他会把真善美发挥到极致。然而逆境中他会走向另一个极端，对于社会来说他可能产生极大的破坏力，但逆境中终究走向毁灭的几率很小。因为他是懦弱的，所以除非他的确无路可走了，他才会走向另一个极端。

巨蟹认为爱情是很私人的问题,不愿意在别人面前公开自己的爱情. 巨蟹不喜欢虚华的东西,比如喝酒,别的男人都以自己能喝而自豪, 而他们即便能喝也不会多喝一点,他们不认为自己不能喝是什么丑事, 相反,他们追求的正和那些俗人们相反, 情感也一样,现在的男人都以自己搞过多少女人而自豪,巨蟹永远认为忠心才是最完美的. 他们只会对那些低俗男人们做法嗤之以鼻,但他们不会指责或做出过激的行动来制止这些事,因为他们认为这是别人的私事,我管好我自己就行了. 也许婆婆妈妈不是好习惯，但总比有的星座装冷酷晾着你强吧！　　　　
巨蟹喜欢被爱人追逐的感觉，但他决不会对这种追逐没有回应，他就是这种性格，只要你愿意先给他一个苹果，他就会乐甸甸的把整个世界都给你！蟹子不论男女都爱玩凄惨，他们会在自己为自己制造的凄惨悲凉中屁甸屁甸的享受落泪的感觉，而你不明白所以以为这是真的悲哀，虽然他们玩的都跟真的似的，但只要你不犯原则性的错误，和巨蟹的爱情总是有惊无险的，就象过山车，惊险刺激，但是很安全，不过任何事情不会有绝对，只要你把握住：　　　　
1 不做原则上对不起他的事情，　　　　
2 保卫你的爱情，不让别的女孩靠近她。（一般他不会主动靠近不熟悉的女孩）　　　　
3 落泪装可怜，激发他的同情心，这是最后一招，也是屡试不爽的一招！　　　　

巨蟹座的人一半是纯白，一半是阴暗。这里只讲后者。他们缺乏安全感，年幼时的孤独常常让他们有无根据的恐慌，并且喜怒无常。他们喜欢摄影，90%以上的巨蟹们有照相机，他们喜欢伤感的影片，能清楚记住每一个情节。他们天生悲观。爱骂人，脾气古怪，会突然爬进保护性的壳里。在受伤后他们很少反击，只会放弃；逃避是他们的习惯，他们对自己渴望的东西总是先退到一边，似乎毫不关心然后突然扑上去。他们没有很强的适应能力，却有天生的领悟力。

他们以自我为中心，懂得自我保护，最关心的人是自己。他们最害怕孤独，但又注定了孤独。他们常常生病。他们有很多秘密。他们把真实的自己藏于夜半的寂静和午间笑声的明朗中…… 其实巨蟹很有才的，但是他们却是默默的从来不张扬的，他们没有出人头地的愿望(大多数) ，所以很多人总是说巨蟹的人胆小又懦弱。可是别忘了，巨蟹的武器。鳌　　　　

巨蟹是外柔内刚的。所以请不要没事惹看似柔弱的巨蟹。否则，你会很惨。

巨蟹有很多的优点：坚强，是隐藏最深的力量。心软，是巨蟹都有的一面。巨蟹的美，好多人不懂得欣赏。那么，如果你不懂得欣赏，就请离巨蟹远点吧。因为，巨蟹是宁愿自己伤心，也不愿别人痛苦的。就算有再多的痛苦，也不会让别人看出来。喜欢一个人承受。对於巨蟹座的人来说，其实另一半若是有难的时候，反而是他们可以发挥所长帮助所爱的人，因为很多巨蟹座认为日子过太好的时候，反而觉得自己没有什麼用，就好像是一个附属品，但是在有难的时候，你才会发现原来自己巨蟹座的另一半吸收苦难的能力那麼强。

摘自：http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=108033322597638&id=100000799617150

Quite true!!

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笑一笑

2010-11-06T16:55:00.001+08:00

全球公认最搞笑冷笑话

1. 蚯蚓一家这天很无聊，小蚯蚓就把自己切成两段打羽毛球去了；

蚯蚓妈妈觉得这方法不错，就把自己切成四段打麻将去了；

蚯蚓爸爸想了想，就把自己切成了肉末。蚯蚓妈妈哭着说："你怎么这么傻？切这么碎会死的！"

蚯蚓爸爸弱弱地说："……突然想踢足球。"

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2、龟兔赛跑.....兔子很快跑到前面去了......

乌龟看到一只蜗牛爬得很慢很慢.....对他说:你上来，我背你吧.....然后......蜗牛就上来了........

过了一会....乌龟又看到一只蚂蚁....对他说:你也上来吧....于是蚂蚁也上来了。

蚂蚁上来以后......看到上面的蜗牛......对他说了句:你好！你们知道蜗牛说什么吗？

蜗牛说：你抓紧点，这乌龟好快.......

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3、五元钱被犯罪团伙绑架了，打电话给百元钞："喂！你儿子在这里，不想我们撕票就用自己来换他！"

百元钞想了一下说："撕吧，撕了你们连5块钱都没有了！"

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4、有一对男女正在吃晚餐，那个女生一直问那个男生：你爱不爱我？

男生看了女生一眼又继续吃晚餐。

女生很生气又再问了一次：你爱不爱我？

男生终于说：爱！

女生又问：那你要怎么证明？

忽然男生从口袋里拿了三十元出来，并问女生:你有没有十元？

女生拿了十元给了男生......

男生就把四十元放在桌上，过了一会儿........

女生很生气的问男生：你到底要不要证明你爱我啊！

男生说：我己经证明了啊！四十摆在眼前！

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5、有一天，一家失火了，爸爸妈妈都逃出来了，只剩下一个儿子还在里面。

妈妈很紧张的在屋外大喊："儿子.....你在干吗......都失火了还不出来......"

儿子回答："我在穿袜子阿....."

妈妈又说，"都失火了还穿什么袜子...."

过了五分钟，儿子还没出来......

妈妈又紧张的喊，"儿子，你到底在干什么？快出来~都失火了，还待在里面....."

儿子说，"我在脱袜子阿........."

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6、有个人到河边钓鱼，先穿了个树叶～半天没鱼上钩，他又换了块面包～一样半天没鱼上钩～没办法他只好去换蚯蚓～一样还是半天没鱼上钩～～

他气愤之下掏一张百元大炒扔入水中大骂：

"他*的，要吃什么！自己去买！"

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7、"我看不清太远的东西，"病人对眼科医生说。

"请跟我来，"医生把病人带到外面，用手指着天上的太阳，问道，"你看那是什么？"

"太阳。"病人回答。

"那你还想看多远！"

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8、有一天动物们在关公庙前面闻到很臭的味道。

蛇说：我这么小不会放这么臭的屁，一定是牛。

牛说：我是吃草的不会放这么臭的屁

猪说：放屁的人一定会脸红。

忽然关公冲了出来，把猪打飞说：说了多少次了，我脸红是天生的。

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9、有个人一天碰到上帝，上帝突然大发善心打算给那人一个愿望......

上帝问，你有什么愿望吗？那个人想了想，听说猫都有9条命，那请您赐给我9条命吧。

上帝说：好，你的愿望实现咯。

一天，那个人闲来无聊，如说去死一死算了，反正有9条命嘛，就躺在铁轨上......

结果一辆火车开过去.....那人还是死了，这是为什么呢？因为那列火车的车厢有10节。

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10、一天，殡仪馆送来了三个人，说也奇怪，他们死后的笑容都是^_^.......殡仪馆管理员很纳闷的问警察：为什么他们死后的脸竟然会是^_^呢？

警察说：这.....说来话长........你看左边那个人，他是跟她老婆在共度春宵时.....在最激情的那一刻，受不了，挂了。

管理员就回答说：唉.....人在花下死，做鬼也风流。那中间那一个是怎么死的？

警察：中间那一个喔，他呀，真是人间惨剧，他走在路上，忽然听见自己中了头彩，奖金7亿多......

他开心的哈哈大笑时，却被迎面而来的车给撞上了，结果，挂了。

管理员回答说：唉，他真的是没有福气享受这荣华富贵的后半辈子。那剩下的这一个呢？

警察：这一个死的就有点可怜了，他是爬上树的时候被雷给劈死的。

管理员回答说：这就有点不对了，被雷劈到为什么还会笑呢....

警察说：因为他爬上树后，突然一道闪电...... 他以为......有人给他拍照......

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11、话说数千年以前，无论是公狗还是母狗，他们小便时都是蹲着的，直到唐朝，事情才有了转变……

唐太宗大家听过吧！他老人家养了一对北京狗，有一次唐太宗上华山祭天，带了这一对去……

祭到一半时，母狗突然内急，于是便跑到一棵树后解决，在祭天时这是非常不敬的行为，因此惹恼了玉帝，

玉帝命令雷公打了一个雷，正好打在树上，树倒了，压死了母狗，公狗看了以后非常害怕……

从此以后，公狗每次在树下小便时，都会伸出一只脚，用力顶着树，以免树倒下来压到自己

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4 to go

2010-11-04T21:57:00.001+08:00

Night falls
Another day is gone
I'm still stuck in the same text CMM, same chapter
It's been few days
When can I move on to the second subject??!
I keep on thinking about what I wanna do after next week
Damn, I just want to have fun
I used to hope that time could freeze or turn back during study week
but not this time
I just hope that I can sit down properly and read the book for just at least 10 mins
I need a slap

The brand name Uniqlo is like popping out everywhere these days
Need to pay a visit when I'm back
And see how KL Plaza had transformed into Fahrenheit 88
Can't wait to go back!!

Saw an article in fb that 2012 is real
I don't want to die without accomplishing my wishlist!
I have lots of lots of plan from now on!

Lastly, Seriously need a reason to study

Die Nacht bricht an
Ein weiterer Tag ist vorbei
Ich bin immer noch im selben Text stecken, gleichen Lehrbuch
Es ist ein paar Tage gewesen
Wann kann ich auf das zweite Thema verschieben?!
Ich halte an darüber nachzudenken, was ich möchte ab der nächsten Woche tun
Verdammt, ich will nur Spaß haben
Füher habe ich zu diesem Zeitpunkt hoffen könnte gefrieren oder umkehren während Studienwoche
Aber diesmal nicht
Ich hoffe nur, dass ich setzen und lesen Sie das Buch nur für mindestens 10 Minuten
Ist das so schwer?
Egal, wie traurig ich bin, kann ich nicht finden, eine Sache, mich zu motiviere

Happy Deepavali!

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FML x n

2010-11-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

OMG, its Wednesday already!! God god god!
I still cannot accept the fact that I'm having 6 papers next week WTF
Been trying to runaway with drama and dating with Duke of Zhou
This is really bad
Just scan through the materials
First thought, OMIGOD THIS TIME EAT SHIT ALREADY
So many things to read
Now left only 4 days to digest everything
Is that possible?
That is barely enough for one subject, analysis
Before is 3 subjects confirm B or below
but now its applicable all subjects
Its really time to start study
NO MORE FB, drama, sleep, & other mou liu ye!
FML to the max

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星期二阴雨

2010-11-02T16:38:00.000+08:00

天气阴阴沉沉
很没生气
我好像得了昏睡症
睡了十几个小时
还可以nap几个小时
应该可就凭此得奖了

这几天都刮大风
吹着吹着
我在想
可不可以顺便刮走学校？
白日梦一个

很久没和老妈子说话
她电话一来第一句和往常一样
有没有肥了 =。=
当然有啦，无聊

怕我做不了她想我做的吧
虽然我也想
但我这副德性，不可能

我check了后
才发现我踩进了屎坑
自己找死
恐惧level一下子飘升
诶又想睡了。。。

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第二日

2010-10-31T12:34:00.000+08:00

时间像手中的砂砾

一粒粒地流走

稍纵即逝

我无动于中

不是不想继续

只是没有勇气

我做了一个祷告

他听得见么？

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Life is only once WTH

2010-10-29T03:42:00.000+08:00

Ja, Ich versuche wegzulaufen

Ich glaube nicht, dass es angesichts

Warum muss Ich ehrlich?
weil, doesn't matter what result I get
In the ende it is still the same
So warum muss Ich studiert für dass 6 damn Themen
where 3 are already bestätigen gegangen
Whats so surprising that I haven't start study or not even plan to study
Warum muss Ich studiert? Warum?
Was ist so wichtig über Ergebnis?
Seine Bedeutung für andere, aber bedeutet es nicht, dass seine für mich wichtig
I feel happier without studying, that's enough to justify it already
Asking me why will certainly screw my mood
because I'm lazy to answer s =)

未来我只想在空中飞翔
其他的我并不需要
所以也不需要这一切
拥有只会让我变得更贪心
不想再偏离

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就这样

2010-10-28T01:31:00.000+08:00

丢了三科

还是完全没想努力的迹象

但出乎意料的

我很快乐

只是

背叛了自己

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回不去的从前

2010-10-26T17:40:00.000+08:00

伤得麻木了

已不懂得怎么流泪

也许一开始就是一个错误

我笑

因为已无力诉说

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I need passion fruit

2010-10-25T13:15:00.000+08:00

Angel:" It's important! Move your damn ass NOW."
Devil:" NO. What is the use??"
Angel:" DAMN YOU! YOU KNOW IT!"
Devil:" NO!"
Angel:" YES!"
Devil:"Time to sleep."
Angel:" ARRRGGG!!!"

I'm glad to hear what the interviewer said
Instead, the honor is mine
But I am afraid I'm gonna let him down
Or he said the same words to everyone else?

Well...I didn't prepare well for it
But sometimes I do love interview because its exciting SOMETIMES
even though I fail, just wanted to see know how is the process

A man greatest fear is to lose passion

My passion sesat already!

人生有几多个十年，最重要痛痛快快！

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24. Oct, Sonntag

2010-10-25T00:47:00.001+08:00

What a relaxing Sonntag after the anstrengend Freitag und busy to have fun Samstag
Its no fun to be sleepless die ganze nacht und go to KL um 4 a.m.
dann coming back to Penang um 4.30 p.m. DAMN EXHAUSTED
Ok, probably the driver is more qualified to say this hahahaha
I really hate to skip German class but its the class I skipped the most =.=
Saturday noon is a waste of my time to go out =.=
but die nacht in Oktoberfest is awesome! OktoberBEST!
We should have hell more Zeit like this!

Now its time to face the reality
Internship interview, assignment und test tomorrow WTH
I still haven't decide where to go, Shang Hai, Singapore, Taipei or HK??
Conflicting!!
Haven't finish assignment
Haven't study for the test
Haven't do presentation slide for database
Haven't think how to ~~cheat~~ convince lec that I did did my part HAHA
I'm doom holy shit

I've heard a lot
How much I wish that they can be ignored in total
But I know its not true
Sometimes I'll defend
Other times, just let it be

I don't know what I want anymore
I'm straying away from the track
Or I am on the right track now?

I do feel that I changed
gradually, because of you
I don't like it
I want to be who I used to be

When I am here,
When I am back there
It's different
You won't understand how it is
I hope you do

After heard what he said,
And few others
I'm not sure I should be happy or sad
Hell yeah, I feel pity for myself too
But not for the same reasons
Because he is much more greater than I am
I've reached my limit
I've made my choice
I couldn't turn back the time to change it anymore
Tell me, what can I do?

I'm tired
I never foresee all of these coming
they are just beyond what I can bear
maybe I can, but I don't want to

Just ignore me, TQ

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Take a break, type a post

2010-10-20T01:45:00.000+08:00

The time is ticking away without any mercy
Can't believe that I'm going to submit a half done assignment in few more hour
First time ever

But the most unbelievable thing is, I just let it be
What happen to me?!!

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Ich mag Wochenende

2010-10-17T19:55:00.000+08:00

F*** IT
I really so GOD DAMN HATE DATABASE
BUT I'M STUCK IN IT!!!

I chose finance cause I didn't get A in p.finance
I chose IT cause I don't even know what is processor
Now, I'm eating the GOD DAMN F***ing consequences from both of them

HOW CAN I POSSIBLY SUBMIT THE ASSIGNMENTS NEXT WEEK?! F***
CREATE A DATABASE IN LESS THAN 3 DAYS?!

This time really FMLTTM

Heute ist Sonntag, morgen wieder Klasse
Das ist nicht gut
Nächste Wochen habe Ich zwei Hörtests und eine schriftliche Prüfung
Aber Ich habe keine Zeit zum Lesen
weil, gibt es viele Hausaufgaben zur gleichen Zeit vorlegen
Ich bin die ganze Tag in meinem Zimmer geblieben
gegessen und geschlafen =..=
Ich muss mein Deutsch üben

Vorschläge machen:
Im Juni möchte Ich nach Taiwan mit meinem Freuden
Wir können im Hotel wohnen
Besonder interessant finde Ich das leckere Essen und den Mode
Oder können wir nach Pulau Redang
Der Insel ist schön
Das Meer ist sauber
Wir können schwimmen gehen, tauchen, ein Sonnenbad nehmen und so weiter
Findest du den Vorschläge interessant?

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Oh Gott, so viel zu tun

2010-10-16T04:33:00.000+08:00

Apparently, gulping down 6 chaps of analysis within a day is really a bad bad idea
I can't even differentiate between RNOA and ROOA, OLLEV and OLEV, etc etc etc
Ok, conclusion, I don't know how to do half of the paper though all of them look so god damn familiar WTF
Billion of my brain cells are now DEAD
Anyway, at least it is over, one thing lesser to frus about
Tonnes of assignment waiving hello to me!
I can't even feel my own feelings anymore,
My face is so stiff
its like I'm a robot, or worst

Tomorrow is a better day

Ich hatte einem Test heute
Ich weiß nicht, wie zu tun
Aber, ich weiß nicht, was traurig ist mehr
Das Leben ist viel zu beschäftigt
Ich habe viele hausaufgaben
nächste Samtag ist Oktoberfest!
hoffentlich kann ich gehen

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Fighto!

2010-10-10T20:08:00.001+08:00

Darlings had been telling me that, you look so depressed and acted so pessimistic lately
*since when I'm optimistic? hmm *
Anyway, how could I possibly laugh or even smile when all of these are happening?

I'm never a fighter
I always dream of a carefree life without any distress
Walk the path I want, in my own way
But this is only a delusion
Because no man is an island
We are always interdependent and interrelated with those we love and care
There are times that I really wanted to quit, but whenever I think of them
I hate how weak I am, how dependent I am, how helpless I am

Life has never fail to surprise me with challenges
pop in at the least desire moment nor expectedly
I know they are so tiny bitsy compared to what faced by billions of other on this Earth
Deep down inside, I know I can't handle all at once
But I hate giving in without trying
So, bring it on!! I love challenges!
I'm gonna slice them one by one!

At least, one day in future when I look back, I'm content even though I failed

An immature man will die for his ideals, while a mature man will suffer for his ideals. - IDK

P/S: Distance is devil!

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Habits

2010-10-03T13:08:00.000+08:00

Gosh, it's October!!!
As usual, time flies! Terrifying!
As usual, assignment is still piling at the corner
As usual, dreaming my time away
As usual, spent most of my time in fb & food
As usual, sleep early in the morning
As usual, skipped all 8 am & 9 am class. It's just too early!
As usual, grumbling about the assignments and damn final time table

Bad habits are hard to break, especially when you like them. - anonymous

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疯了

2010-09-24T21:03:00.000+08:00

每天像梦游似的度过
上一秒做了什么也忘了
很快的，一个月又要过了
真的很恐怖
十月就要交all assignments了
到现在还是一样都没做
midterm都考很差especially german & database
还烂过国语，这次够力了
看到刚出的Final time table, 更加 WTF
all 6 subjects in a week, 1st week somemore
It'll be a miracle if I can survive this sem
我还是很想念瑞士&Paris&Wien

星星有很多
但看到的又有几颗？
至少我们都在努力
逃离黑暗的孤独
蜕变需要耐心的等待
如果最美好的早已在心中
再好的选择也会视而不见

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遗失了

2010-09-19T21:51:00.000+08:00

伤心，是因为那是别人的一番心意
如是自己的，反而可以不以为意
有得必有失
真的是不争的现实
为什么总是如此
我知道但我真的不懂
也不想懂

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ki siao

2010-09-13T18:57:00.001+08:00

I bought Adventa at 2.73 then it dropped to 2.37. Just because of this one share I lose 30k. My bro sold it and now, today it's up to 2.64!!! WTF WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!!!!!!! Shouldn't had sold it. If not the lose will be only 7k....IF, ONLY IF there is IF. I want to hack the system to change my lose LOL.
Ok, I'm still strunggling to recover 40k I lost =..=
God bless

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Holiday 1

2010-09-12T17:33:00.000+08:00

Today is Sunday. Hommie day~ One week of holiday is gone! So freaking fast! I've spent my whole week in bullshit. Everyday sleep at 5 a.m., wake up at 2 p.m. Eat, sleep & go out. The cycle repeats for the past 8 days. Boh liao to the max. I do enjoy the boh liao-ness haha but somehow, its kinda meaningless sometimes because sleeping at 5 a.m. makes me dizzy whole day long everyday. Feel like I'm a walking zombie in the day. Anyway, the best thing is I don't have to attend class from morning till 10 p.m. woohooo~~~~~~~~~ This is already the bless! Feel like this is the holiday within sem that I truly have after be in USM. The only way to have holiday is left all the shit stuff behind the mind though its just self-deception.I did bring lotsa books back but all of them are still seal in my luggage. I don't intend to unseal them in the coming week too though I can foresee that I'll die once the holiday ends because of the 6 damn crazy assignments. Hmm....what to do tomorrow?

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Beh tahan

2010-09-03T03:12:00.000+08:00

Lately a lot of cases keep on appearing anywhere
I'm always insensitive to news
but now they are just presented to me everyday
due to curiosity, keep on reading
and the wtf keep on adding on day to day
this is how the flame contagious

At first I wasn't sure that I want to work oversea
because I always thought this is my home
But now I definitely wanna apply for the oversea internship
Whether can get it or not is different story of course
But now, MUST apply
Destination : UK, Singapore or China

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！！！！

2010-09-01T18:45:00.000+08:00

很？？！！！！！！！！
说不出的失败、失望
这种感觉
真的，无奈！！！
这一刻，真的只想说他马的

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Guten Tag, September!

2010-09-01T00:45:00.001+08:00

Ein Monat ist schnell vorüber
Der August ist vorbei
Heute ist ein neuer Anfang wieder!
Solange man Träume noch leben kann
Alle Guti!

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Ich brauche Zeit!

2010-08-30T23:23:00.001+08:00

Just back from class! WTH. Tomorrow should be shouting Merdeka but STILL HAVE CLASS. What semester is this? Everyday class till 10 p.m. still not enough? Public holiday also have class. NO BUS! Why the lecturer is so hardworking. WHY. No time to study for Database and Investment at all! Shit. Now feel like I'm language student more than management student =..= 10 hours of language classes this week WTH. Only 2 subjects but 10 hours of lectures. Other 4 subjects are only a total of 14 hours per week ok.
The most pathetic is still myself, the more work I have, the more time I spent in boh liao thingy. Life is so fulfilled!

我的梦想，我的目标
我会把他们一一完成

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Insane I go

2010-08-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

*I need to explode here before I accumulate more and explode on a human* I'm very tired. + really pissed with the damn laptop and hp. No time to search for one yet. I really don't understand why the heck I have so many classes..WHY?!
Mon 9 a.m.-10 p.m.
Tues 3 p.m.-7 p.m.
Wed 8 a.m. - 10 p.m.
Thurs 11a.m. - 5 p.m.
Fri 2 p.m. - 4 p.m.
Don't have time for tutorials, assignments, study or whatever. Never care about stocks lately and now its terribly in the negative zone. I'm not shock when I check it today because I'm not following passive strategy but really doubt whether I can at least bounce back to break even or not.
The PNB investment competiton is more or less an extra burden. Of course if can win in the national level it will be worthwhile but then I really don't have time to study for it at all. Even winning in usm is due to freaking good teammates. I really salute him man. Very specialize in bond valuation. Answering in the paper and on the stage is really different story. Really god bless in the national level. I don't mind losing but I guess losing is not an option as the lecturer already gave some hints. Be committed to the competition. For my teammates, sorry dudes. I really don't feel like studying for it.

This coming holiday is public holiday but class still going on. In addition, exam on Saturday. WTF. 3 more midterms to go next week, one assignment submission. I just wish that I go insane and be admitted into Tanjung Rambutan..

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Absence

2010-08-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

km is not accountable for our distance
Feel that 300+km is further away than 6000+km
Maybe we should have a thought on this

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I need guts!

2010-08-21T21:42:00.003+08:00

Because the second round result is based on score ranking, I'm like number 34 or after out of 39 so I think I wouldn't get into the final round. Since I'm not going to be in the final, its no harm to go to the second round quiz since he said can get some exposure about how investment midterm will be. But now wth?! FML to be in the final round. Waste time and mempersialsuikan sendiri. I'm kinda doubt whether he consider cgpa during selection or not. If he did, it will be a huge mistake to take me in. I can't even answer quiz during p.finance tutorial in the past semester. I'm quite positive I got 0 for those quiz that time cause I know I can't do it and my p.finance midterm grade dropped like shit after adding the quiz marks while some people jump 2 grades up. Wth. Now have to answer on the stage within the specify time and being recorded? I'm doom. I'm doom. I'm DOOOOOOMM is all in my mind now.

I'm extremely super damn afraid of next wed. I'm gonna dig a hole to bury myself after the quiz....................Totally no time to study somemore due to assignmentSSSS and presentationSSSS........The more stress and work that I had, the more time I contribute to fb =..= Damn

Hopefully no one attend the quiz session.
Hopefully DTSP in on fire.
Hopefully there is an announcement that wed is holiday.
Hopefully the quiz is canceled.

I'M VERY SCARE! I CANNOT DO CALCULATIONS WHEN NERVOUS AND UNDER PRESSURE!!!! SHIT

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Silence night

2010-08-18T01:55:00.000+08:00

序曲天空之城（吟唱版）烟花易冷
Repeating the two songs in this silence night
Got my nerve to away for the while
Works will come again after the dream
How much I wish I could just runaway
I'm afraid of what is coming

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Nichtig Thema

2010-08-17T01:31:00.000+08:00

HP und laptop screen already made mein Leben shitty und jetzt the laptop is full with virus. It's very annoying as the virus detection keep popping out when virus is detected. Major part of my Emotion, Energie, Zeit, etc are spent in dealing with these mess.

Do you think its possible to finish 7 chapters, 2 presentations und database first report in ein Tag?
I don't think so. Therefore, I decided to forget all of them from now on and ja, Ich believe its a god damn good method to train my spontaneousness =)

Deutsch Lektion ist heute gestartet, von 20.00 bis 22.00 Uhr. Es wird zu 6 Stunden pro Woche werden von nun an. Ermüdend.... =(

Manchmal wollen Sie etwas unbedingt haben oder machen, aber es geht nicht. Was soll ich tun?

Eigentlich weiß ich, was ich will. Aber ich Verlust der Mut einmal habe ich, Maßnahmen zu ergreifen. Ich habe kein Ziel mehr.

Ich möchte Urlaub!

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Personality assessment

2010-08-14T16:35:00.019+08:00

I joined a matchmaking agency to do some research for my SME database project haha. Due to boredom, I did the personality assessment in the website. Well..... x)

You are a NEGOTIATOR / director

You have a great overview of reality. You see many angles to the same issue and enjoy discussing multiple solutions to complex problems. You like to use your imagination and engage in creative theorizing.

You have executive social skills, easily picking up the gestures, facial expressions and speech patterns of others. You are intuitive; you generally understand people, and your sympathetic nature makes you pliant, adaptable and likeable.

Yet despite your charm and poise in large social situations, you often enjoy solitude or intense conversations with just one individual or a few close friends.

You are good at doing and thinking a lot of things at the same time. But when you focus on an issue, idea or problem, you like to concentrate in depth. You leave no stone unturned.

And with your insight, charm and intellectual bent, you make warm and interesting company.

Your Major and Minor Personality Types

Your major personality type = Negotiator
Your minor personality type = Director

E-Explorer - 23%	N-Negotiator - 29%
B-Builder - 24%	D-Director - 25%

And I saw someone unexpected in the matchmaking member's profile x)
I'm wondering who will be his lucky girl ;)

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Life like this

2010-08-14T01:21:00.003+08:00

A month + one week since I've back in Malaysia. And I had food poisoning twice. I only had once in my 21 years before this but now twice in one month. My stomach needs some time to get used to the food especially mamak though I do love them =(

It's been weeks since all the tutorials and assignments had started. Somehow, I'm still quite in holiday mood. There's even a few times that when I woke up, I eventually thought that I'm in Sonnenstrasse 17 for a few seconds before I realize in fact, I'm in Tekun! WTF man. I really miss Swiss so much! This is bad and unexpected cause I never though I will like that country that much. Anyway, better not to crap too much about this here *to avoid being label as unpatriotic x)* Great news is AIESEC is offering another chance to go oversea. This time is an oversea internship, hopefully can join X) This time I want to go to China or Taiwan or wherever as long as its not in Europe X)

After the months of slacking, I'm used to it. I felt that everyone around is so damn extremely hardworking! What I heard from people around these days is only study, read, study, read............WTF. Feeling horrible but still can't boost my study mood. I don't feel like studying anymore so I've decided to transfer credits from fhs to usm which means, I'll have to say goodbye to first class honor...Hmm......well...there is always trade-off in between life. I'm actually quite satisfied with my fhs result, just that its not enough to be like that in usm. If I'm graduating from fhs then it will be a different case of course x)

I'm always a person of risk adversion, a high one I will say. But the stock trading these weeks really helps in conquering it. Stock trading is very exciting though its kinda stressful under current situation cause at the same time we still have to deal with many other assignments, quiz, exam and etc. When the index is jumping up 3.41, 3.42, 3.43......, I can feel that my adrenaline is catching after! But when its going the other way round, 3.45, 3.44, 3.43......, I'll swear WTF WTF WTF non stop haha *low EQ boh huat lor*

"Every time you win, it diminishes the fear a little bit. You never really cancel the fear of losing; you keep challenging it."
~Arthur Ashe

A statement that fully explained my feeling of investing. Now, I enjoy the risk and the premium XD
High risk high return, a universal law that will never surpass by time, people and whatever, wherever whenever bla bla bla.....

Get to know a simulation investment game that will start from 16 August 2010, next Monday. Since we are already involve in investing so why not join this also? Investment is INTERESTING! No?

Try it out!

Join OSK Investment Challenge Campus Edition! Win attractive prizes and also a computer lab for your college/university
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My calender

2010-08-11T02:16:00.000+08:00

I looked at the calender

Another day I crossed

Within, I'm terrified

Cause I have a day lesser than yesterday

Somehow, I'm glad

Cause I'm a day nearer to you

Each passing moment

It is a gift

to learn from the past

to live in the present

to plan for the future

with the beloved ones

There's is no boundaries

for family, friendship, love

because its all connected at the heart
Everlasting

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Be well prepared

2010-08-09T22:20:00.001+08:00

Opportunities and success are meant for those who are well-prepared
I can't help but surrender to this fact
But to be well-prepared all the time is a great challenge
When people asked:" Are you ready?"
How much I wanted to answer:" JA! Let's bring it on!"
One day......this will be the only answer for such question

For now, focus on current =)

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Finally its weekend!

2010-08-06T20:48:00.000+08:00

股市吃泻药，我也吃了泻药
这两天diarrhea到想死
肚子抽经似的想吐又不能
我想还是只吃面包比较正常
最够力是现在graduation week没有巴士
还要这样走来走去
真的很想昏倒算了
Investment lecture听了一头雾水
越来越skeptical about decision to major in finance
看了成绩单，skeptic 是对的
再看看股市，我绝对不属于这里
9am-5pm 没课就会很自然的对着电脑
每天这样看，每天这样跌
不懂什么时候会die of depression
电脑’s screen还要像交通灯一样一直闪一直闪
什么时候才能repair
很高兴明天是weekend了
股市is closed! XDXDXD

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Self talk

2010-08-03T02:11:00.001+08:00

My rationality said, its time to come back to the reality

But I can't stop dreaming, in my own imagination of fairyland

Negleting the duty, the responsibility and the surrounding

The clock is still ticking

But my hearing-receptors are selectively numbed

I'm willingly stuck in my own dimension

Because I know, you are always there

I'm getting used to be pampered

It's unhealthy

I know, I know

but I can't help it

I'm reluctant to let go

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Widmet sich der eine und einzige

2010-08-02T02:34:00.000+08:00

Es gibt Zeiten, dass wir nicht dort sein könnte für jeden anderen
aber es ist diese Distanz, die uns stärker machen
weil Sie, glaube ich in der Ewigkeit
Obwohl wir wissen nie, was passieren wird in der nächsten Sekunde
Aber ich glaube an dich
Die Zukunft, dass sehe ich kann, ist mit dir

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It's going up!

2010-08-01T03:12:00.002+08:00

Now I know how's the feeling of food poisoning.
It's freaking horrible! Almost fainted.
I'm gonna get heart attack soon by watching the market everyday. And the price of the shares I bought is going down like crazy. GOD! HELP!

A bad start for August. But bad start always ends good right? It's the law of nature! =D

No matter what, I got you, you got me. I'm glad.
That's all I wanted to say.

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Multilingual?

2010-07-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

In penang, we are expected to speak Hokkien
In KL & Perak, we are expected to speak Cantonese
In St. Gallen & Germany, we are expected to speak German
In Geneva & France, we are expected to speak French
In Spain, we are expected to speak Spanish
In Italy, we are expected to speak Italian
How many languages & dialects actually can a person speaks?

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Week 3

2010-07-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

Coming back to Penang makes me feel emo. How good if I can stay in KL. I don't know why, I just don't feel like staying in Penang. Maybe I'm trying to run away from (?). I'd back here for few hours already but my brain still can't squeeze out a presentation topic for tomorrow =..=

I think study has became not so important to me somehow. That's why I'm going back KL these 2 weeks though I have unfinished business. Anyway, my journey this time tells me that no more Mayang Sari bus in future. Better to stick with Transnational bus.Or maybe Konsortium.

My fb is finally back to normal mode, all the words are in English again~ Well, maybe its not really a good thing as I seldom get expose to German now back in Msia. I need to read or listen to some German because I skip one level here and I don't know what they are talking exactly in the first class. German level one here is more advanced than the German class there >< wth man.

Hopefully I can get my FHS result tomorrow! *nervous*

I need some um to stay here!

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Week 2

2010-07-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

It's the second week of semester! Woohoo~~ Means there is a week less to holiday~ XD
Anyway, quite many stuffs are not settle yet. Assignments and reports. Heck! It's only second week. I don't know why our School of Management is so lame =..= I may not have to extend my study actually, but now the stupid don't know what "2+3 according to guide book" will make me extending definitely. The name is called School of MANAGEMENT but the management is the most lame of all. How can this be?! Ok, lets see how the case goes on, probably more changes are coming up HAHAHA

Since it's just the beginning of semester, there's a lot of stuff that are needed to be added into the buy list which made me feel that the things in Malaysia is kinda expensive. Sometimes I couldn't stop myself from comparing them to Swiss's good's price. When I buy a loaf of toast in St. Gallen, its only Fr.1.25. Here, I bought a loaf of toast with RM 3.15. Lindt chocolate is damn cheap there, around Fr. 2.25 per 100g. Here, I think I saw in Guardian a small tiny bar cost RM 4++. Milch 1L is only Fr. 1.2. 325g of paprika chips is only Fr. 3.25 and many more. Of course do not consider the exchange rate. Whatever I bought there, the number on the price tag looks smaller than the price tag here.

There are of course things that are more expensive. Text books are really very expensive, all of the text books needed by my course are over Fr. 100. So now back here I'm damn willing to buy original text haha. Usually only RM 60-90. Anyhow, I think Swiss living cost is still low relative to their salaries. Here, things are expensive relative to our salaries. If I can speak Swiss German, I think I will want to stay there. Too bad, language is a huge barrier.
I miss the freaking delicious juicy grill hot dogs, the variety of yogurts, muesli, bread, the weather, the bus, the train, the punctuality, eventually is everything in Swiss~~

Finally, tomorrow is coming! YESH. I can see the dentist! God damn happy! These few days, I can't even eat, talk or smile comfortably =..= It's really hell suffocating. Tomorrow comes faster~

I think I'm going back KL again this weekend HAHAHAHA~

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飞

2010-07-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

看着窗外

我在想穿梭于云霄

会是怎么的一个感觉

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Ache again!

2010-07-15T00:58:00.005+08:00

It's not even one week that I did my tooth filling and now its getting ache....
That dentist is so so @#$%^&* Somemore she caused me jaw dislocation and didn't know how to fixed my jaw back =..=
At that moment, I was like "OMG, am I gonna be like this the rest of my life??!!!!!" Luckily there's another dentist, if not I'm really x.x
But WTH, you are the so called dentist but you don't know how to fixed my jaw after you caused it?! Really wonder where did she graduated from -..- Even now, I still can feel the effect of jaw dislocation, my jaw's joint will pain whenever I open my mouth widely.I really feel like going back to KL NOW to blame the dentist =..=
Only get my teeth mould and filling already gave me a very negative impression...Maybe doing orthodontics isn't such a good idea.
Now, I need to see a dentist again to repair my seriously damaged tooth! Toothache and the not so comfortable jaw + the invisible pressure that are coming are driving me crazy!

In addition, I really boh song the CS D.Dean. Walao eh, I went to her for 3 times and don't know waste already how much of my time, she still can't give me an answer. Its just a yes or a no wth. Hopefully I can get a reply tomorrow... Things will be okay......
I need to believe船到桥头自然直!

When I was in BB Plaza last week, guess what I saw. I saw the table maps that I bought at Schloss Schönbrunn, Vienna, Austria. It's selling for RM 39 per piece LOL. I still susah susah bring it back from 6000++ miles away don't know for what *swt* + All the key chains & magnets that I got from Paris Disneyland has a very obvious "Made in China". + The clothes are usually made in China, India, Vietnam, Bangladesh, and etc Asian countries. Yes, you can call it globalization but then I have other thought which I'm lazy to jot it down here cause it will be a long long KSE theory lol.

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Disconnected

2010-07-13T20:29:00.001+08:00

Nikotin, its too much

but the dysphoria stays in

I thought I can deal with all of these

but in fact, I can't

I've expected this coming

Yet, I'm not prepared for it
Vulnerable is all I felt

What can be done to get me over this

I must move on no matter how hard it is

I know you are there

but can you prove your existence

even just for some times

Now, I can hardly smile to say its fun
How much I hope I can dream these away

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New semester!

2010-07-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

Oh my oh my, it's time to study again. Urgh...I hate this. Everything is still in a mess and I'm freaking lack of sleep. I still haven't have any rest and now it's time to study? WTH?!
Could I just wish upon the star that this is just a dream and I will be waking up in St. Gallen? *Dreaming*
But then, at least I wanna stay in KL for a longer period. I can't even remember well my house address and way back home now. Not long after moved, fly to CH. Then back in KL for only a few days, back in PG. WTH. I miss Swiss! I miss KL!
The first day of semester is a big NO NO day to me, have to go here and there to settle the credit transferring thingy. But the most kek hei is the CS school deputy dean doesn't want to entertain me after I've waited her for 45 mins =..= Asked me to come again tomorrow cause she wanna settle her school's students first =..= Unfair lorrrr...tomorrow have to go here and there again WTH.
As usual, this semester is packed also. I don't want to shoulder the burden. I wanna fly, fly far far away up to the clouds!
Good thing is I've FINALLY finished my FHS exchange report today though its only 3 pages. HAHAHA. Time to get started for USM exchange report =..= And I'm going to online 24/7 again~

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Distress

2010-07-01T19:25:00.000+08:00

Last 5 days in St Gallen, one more paper to go

It's kinda saddening for spending the last days here in exam

B.Informatics is definitely going to fail, just hope others pass

But the upset is not cause solely by this

By looking into the eyes, lies are all I see

No more conversation please

Silence is all I need

Maybe this is the only way out

Time will heal

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Life is what we make it

你好吗

The ordinary

想

Everyone loves Friday!

Decided

Finally

Internship

1406

If I have wings

Too late to regret

三年了

Bill Gates' 11 Rules of Life

积累

Top 30 Universities in Malaysia

飞扬的岁月

看着自己的悲伤

Steamboat@Golden

Awe!

谷底

Ganbatte!

Exam marathon

God, bless this week

倒数两天

一日三餐

小叮当，你在哪？

03042011

Because I am stupid - SS501

WTF critical

Rush hoursss

62心情日记

Can I fly

My dream

Eyes open wide

悔

MORE TIME PLS

Efficiency? GTH

Blue Valentine

Holiday no more

Tagebuch23

Tagebuch18

Shoo-ed away the clouds

How will it be?

311210

KHJ Intoxication

Fresh new beginning!

假期？

Heart Kim Hyun Joong

Thanks God

a.m.

寻找目标

我不想

How much I wish

EMO

UNFAIR

Starts to feel nervous!

巨蟹座

笑一笑

全球公认最搞笑冷笑话

4 to go

FML x n

星期二 阴雨

第二日

Life is only once WTH

就这样

回不去的从前

I need passion fruit

24. Oct, Sonntag

Take a break, type a post

Ich mag Wochenende

Oh Gott, so viel zu tun

Fighto!

Habits

疯了

遗失了

ki siao

Holiday 1

Beh tahan

！！！！

Guten Tag, September!

星期二阴雨